FoR sUch a TiMe aS tHiS

2009-12-19T06:44:00.000-08:00

"To do Your will
To seek Your face
I long to please You Lord
To speak Your words
To love Your ways
Seeking just to know You
This is my desire

Not my will but Yours be done
Not my ways but Yours alone
In my life
I'll bring You pleasure Lord
In everything I do be glorified.."

I have not heard this song for a long time and i was reminded of it just now and these words are the cry of my heart.. Renew my vision once again, Lord..

2009-08-09T09:01:00.000-07:00

The True Builders

"Let us all come back to authenticity in ministry and know that true ministry is an easy yoke and a light burden.

What makes ministry complicated, complex, difficult and heavy is self and the flesh. Self and the flesh are always going for competition, comparison, the acceptance and applause of man.

All true builders of God's work, like the men building the great temple at Jerusalem, are contended to build quietly, deeply and accurately - always looking to God for direction and precision, not to man for approval and applause."

Man's approval and applause are indeed very heavy burdens and not easy yokes at all."
(Minister out of a strong inner life - Susan Tang)

This spoke to me coz I've been bothered by people's expectations and opinions what I should or should not be doing.. Am i listening to man's or God's voice? It brings me back to question my motive on why I'm doing what I'm doing..

Ministry stems out of my relationship wif Him.. I remembered the song that captured my heart, that made me choose to serve in the worship ministry was this:

Knowing You Jesus
Knowing You
That is no greater thing
You're my all, You're the best
You're my joy, my righteousness
And I love You, Lord..

This was the basis why I worship Him and serve in the 1st place.. It's all about Him, all that I'm doing is all for Him and I do not want to live up to man's expectations anymore. My confidence and trust is in You Lord..

2009-08-01T06:13:00.001-07:00

I'm tired of doing, tired of planning, tired of having to keep adjusting to changes.. :/ Restore to me the joy of my salvation...

Unchangeable
Unshakeable
Unstoppable
That's what You are..

2009-06-25T00:23:00.000-07:00

God is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all I ask or imagine.. And He realli blew my mind away last nite when I received a piece of good and surprising news from Vera.. :D I realli din expect it at all...

It's realli true that when you honour God in your life, He will never short-change you.. And looking back, i realli saw how God has orchestrated these events in my life for His purpose and plan.. And He makes all things realli beautiful in His time.. :)

Thank you Daddy God for Your grace and favour upon me.. :) This year has realli been a different and an exciting year for me! :D

I went for the worship camp yesterday and Andrew Yeo's sharing never fails to inspire and encourage me over and over again.. I like the way that he is so real and humble and how God has been using him so mightily.. :)

http://www.andrewyeoonline.com/Home.html

"The time has come to stand for all we believe in.."

2009-06-14T06:34:00.000-07:00

Met up with Peiling, Jenice and Wei Cun last thurs.. I'm realli realli glad that I get 2rekindle the friendship wif them once again.. It makes me feel like I'm back to secondary school days.. :)

We had a good time catching up with one another at Millenia Walk's coffee club! :) I still love the orange sofa there! :D

You know I was just asking God recently.. where are all my peers? And amazingly my primary school fren found me on facebook and we started finding our other classmates!

We found almost half the class already! So cool! :D

It's been 12 years since i last saw them and all of them look so grown up now! We are gonna have a gathering next month! Yay! I cant wait! Thank you Daddy God! :D

Mommy bought a new camera and I cant wait to use it! :D

2009-06-05T07:48:00.000-07:00

I realli wanna thank God for giving me the strength to run the 10km adidas sundown! At that point of time when I fell and injured both my knees at the last 2-3km, I tot I would not be able to complete the run already..

But I did not want to give up juz like that and amazingly I still had the strength to run without feeling any pain on my knees.. And I even completed the run faster than i thought, it was realli by God's grace and strength! :)

This incident also reminded me of how our life / Christian life is juz like a marathon.. There may be hurts / woundings along the way but as long as we fix our eyes on God and dun give up, He will give us the strength and peserverence to finish the race! :)

No matter how hard / tiring it may be, remind me Lord, that I'm doing all this for You. Renew the fire in me again..

2009-05-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

Lord I stand upon Your strength
I know You'll always by my side
There are times I cant go on
But You will always lead me on..

2009-05-12T05:46:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how God can bring us through different seasons in life and remove those things that are not good for us so He can purify us as gold. Looking back, I do not regret the decisions that I made.

I'm glad I did what was right and pleasing to Him. :)

Last saturday, I finally got to spend the whole day out with my family and celebrate Mother's day! :)

I gave my mom a surprise by bringing her to a spa! haha.. She was really surprised! :P My mommy deserves a good treat! :) Next time I will save up more so we can go together! :P

Then we went to Zhou's kitchen for a Hi-tea chinese buffet! It's part of Tung Lok group and it costs $18.80 per person! Quite affordable for a buffet! :)

The food was quite bt they din have my Har Gow (shrimp dumpling) that day.. :( Din mange to take nice pics of the food also.. Nvm, shall go back another time.. :P

I love my mommy!! :D

2009-05-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

Just when I needed assurance, God used two people to encourage me.. And it was realli quite unexpected... Thanks Dee Dee and Joshua.. :)

I am the apple of His eye :)

2009-04-19T07:43:00.000-07:00

Had an outing with some of my collegues yesterday.. coz some of them are leaving for studies soon and it was like a bonding outing b4 they leave..

We went to Raffles place again on a saturday!! Coz the Boat Quay Mind cafe had mega happy hours at $7.50 per pax for games from 2-6pm wif free flow of drinks!! Good deal! :D

We played a game called Jenga which was like Uno stacko and it had truth or dare qns.. But the dares were pretty simple actualli.. Some were:

Dare 1: Pretend you a ballerina dancing around the room

Dare 2: Pretend you a cat licking yourself.

Dare 3: Pretend you are a police directing traffic

Lolx.. So easy rite? Played many other games but we had lots of fun laughing and I think we were the most rowdy bunch! :P

Promoters of The Mind Cafe! Lolx..

Chipmunk kena the ballerina dare! haha.. and she had abit of motion sickness after spinning around.. :P

The only young guy in our HR department.. :P

The sky was lovely yesterday!! :D

I'm so goin to miss chipmunk!! One more month b4 she leaves for studies.. :(

I enjoyed myself yesterday! :D Also a good time to get to noe the rest of the gals coz i've always been sticking around wif chipmunk only..

Hmm, bt i dunno wat it's goin to be like coz the topics they talk abt during lunch are against the standards of God.. and i'm sick and tired of gossips! I don't want to be part of it bt then i'll be seen as weird.. This is a daily test for me! A test of my faith and what I stand for!

Perhaps that's why God place me there.. to be that light that shines in the darkness! Lord, help me to stand firm and honour You in everything I say or do..

2009-04-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

Ok, i shall update this significant gathering that we had last sat.. We finally met up after 7 long years!! And it all happened through the power of facebook!

haha.. found most of my sec sch frens there and one of them tagged us in class fotos and brought back so much memories and we were so eager to meet up! :)

And last sat was earth hour too.. Swensens switched off most of the lights and brought out candles! So cool! :) We did alot of "xiang dan nian.. ", laughed, teased our form teacher and had a great meal coz he treat all of us! :)

I tink secondary school days are one of the best times of my life! :D Even tho we look super blur, kena bullied (the guys who kept stealing my pencil box and making me run after them! haha..) but we made great frens and had great teachers! :)

The class foto way back in 2002! :)

Look at how we have changed and matured! Except Mr Ong who still looked the same lor.. haha.. Too bad onli most of the gals could come.. bt all of them looked so pretty now! :)

The close frens in secondary school.. and the one on the extreme left was our class chairman! :)

My close malay frens! :) The one beside me, Adlin, helped me alot with my home-econs sewing! haha.. and she remembers it for life! She's a drama-queen too! :P

My form teacher and chemistry/physics teacher, Mr Victor Ong! :) He was the one who got me to love science! :D And he taught us to memorize the formula "V=IR" using "Victor Is a Rapist"! Goodness!! Cant believe he used such a term lor! But all of us still remembered that after 7 years! Good method hor? haha..

I had alot of fun! :D Hopefully we can have another meet-up again! :D

2009-03-22T08:04:00.000-07:00

Picture taken by Alvin. :) The beautiful double rainbow that we saw yesterday after youth service! :D The last time i saw a double rainbow was last year I think.. :)

I was reading the bible and came across this verse:

"Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him. This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the Lord..."
(Ezekiel 1:28)

Then I was like "WOW!! i juz saw the rainbow!" I actualli read this verse during the week but I kinda forgot about it..

It was actualli an answer to my prayer. Coz I was reading a book about "Passion for His glory" and was asking God to show me His glory and His beauty.. And I din expect Him to show it to me through a rainbow! It was a double rainbow some more! haha.. OUR GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!! :D

My heart was bubbling with so much joy yesterday! haha.. I have not felt this joy for awhile.. I want MORE of this!! :D

2009-03-01T04:24:00.000-08:00

About 120 people turned up for the F.R.I.E.N.D.S event at Swensens yesteday! It was a blast! :D

I think this is the 1st time that we really did an event like this outside church setting! Peiling said that it was the best event she has ever attended and she really enjoyed herself! :D

I felt that this event really broke the ice and barrier of church being so religious or holy.. Coz Jesus went out to the marketplace too! :)

I'm really impressed with William, Alex, Shuan, Jon Neo who helped to plan and organize everything! They did a realli fantastic job! :D

Nigel and Jeremiah also did the games realli well and my frens all enjoyed it! Super innovative! :D

Val and Clara danced realli well and they cheograph this within a few weeks i tink.. haha.. as usual rite Val? :P But at least they had the boldness to dance with their tambourines at Swensens! So Cool! :D

Ray and Dee did a fantastic job in choosing the songs too! Good exhortation and singing! :D

Thank God for this amazing opportunity to have an event like this! :D We shall have many more of such events! :P

Greater things God is gonna do in and through us when we avail ourselves to Him! :)

We had a free flow of chicken baked rice, fried fish, french fries and chicken wings!! YUMMY!! I din even noe they had such nice chicken wings at Swensens! I'm so gonna order that when I go swensens next time! :P

This is the 1st time we had our full LG pic! :D I was so glad that Candice could make it yesterday!! :D May you all shine forth God's beauty in and through you! :D

Our table pic.. :)

2009-02-26T05:35:00.001-08:00

Ok, this is super random post.. Can you believe Mr Bean (the store that sells soya bean) sells this for charity at $3.90? Super duper cute! :D They should market their product! :P

These are the small little things that I play wif in the office when I get sleepy! :P

This was an abandoned puppy soft toy that Jaslyn found on the MRT.. and she always abuses it by hitting it on the table when she's bored! See how pitiful it looks? haha.. bt i love playin wif her puppy, super cute! :P

2009-02-25T05:51:00.000-08:00

"It is important for us to understand that our battles are to be the manifestation of His victory. We no longer fight for victory but we fight from victory because of what Christ has done on the cross. Winning is assured when we enter the battle.

What we believe to be our most fearful stumbling block is actually the door to our greatest victory. Our greatest destiny lies on the other side of fear. Courage is the ability to advance in the face of adversity to obtain these treasures.

When we refuse to compromise, we become the people that God can trust to carry His glory to the world!"
(adapted from the book "Supernatural Ways Of Royalty" by Kris Vallotton)

This really spoke to me. :) I thank God for bringing like-minded people alongside me to encourage and spur me on! I wanna be strong and courageous and not give up! :)

2009-02-22T05:15:00.000-08:00

My work has been getting quite routine and I was asking God to show me my real purpose there.. And I think somehow God is revealing it to me coz I've been bumping into people whom I have not contacted for awhile..

One of CPF frens Ya Yun, whom I've not kept in contact for 1 year came into EY to do internship.. And the funny thing was she was not even doing accounting but marketing and I was the one keying in her details into the system! haha.. She's working on the same floor as me some more and she wil be there for 6 months! Cool eh?

I remember lending her the purpose driven life book when we were working at CPF and how she backslided from God.. Hmm, wonder what God has in mind this time round but I hope to make use of every opportunity! :)

And guess who I saw last friday on my way to work? CANDICE!!! I muz admit that I was super blur in the morning (brain haven wake up) coz when I saw her, I couldnt remember her name! I had to search through my phonebook to recall her name lor.. That was how sotong I was.. :P

I was wondering what she was doing at Raffles place so early in the morning and she told me she was early for work and was just exploring around.. haha.. She's working as a temp at KPMG which was super near to my office! :P

Yay! This means I get to meet up wif her for lunch and I've been thinkin abt her! Kooldos! (learnt tis cool word from serene :P)

Oh oh oh, and one of my secondary sch frens juz dropped me an email out of the blue saying she wants to meet up! It's been many years since we last contacted and I'm realli realli realli glad I get to meet up wif her tis week.. :D

God is realli bringing people back into my life just like that and it looks like these few months are gonna be realli interesting for me.. :)

Thank you Lord for carrying me through this realli rough week! Thank you Lord for the victory that You have promised me and to stand by me! No weapon formed against me shall prosper!

2009-02-11T07:42:00.001-08:00

Met up with my CPF board frens 2day.. It's been two years since we last met and we did alot of catching up or rather we talked alot abt the good old working days in CPF board.. I tink it was one of my best temp days.. haha..

I was also looking through my archives for old CPF fotos.. Thank God that blogger still archives all my blog entries! Realli brought back alot of memories and fun times.. :)

I hope to see them again in June! :)

From Left: Eng Soon (the IT guy who is doing his internship at a contact lens company?), Justin (the joker), Marcus (our future doctor), me, Yu wei (fish tail), Pei Shan, Mei Mei :)

2009-01-27T05:06:00.000-08:00

CNY day 2

Went to Vera's house 2day with my collegues. We played the disney version of Monopoly and I almost got bankrupt coz of Gerald! He bought so many castles and I had to pay huge rentals! :/ haha.. but it was fun! :)

Joseph engrossed with the TV.. :P

Joseph dancing to the Barney and Friends song.. :P

I love Joseph! So cute! :D

CNY Day 1 (at Uncle's place)

My cheeky nephew.. He refuses to smile properly at the camera lor..

This younger nephew doesnt like to take photos.. haha.. Bt i still love him! :P

Chinese New Year Eve (Reunion dinner)

Lo Hei!

The older nephew.. see what i mean? He loves making monkey faces when taking fotos... haha..

The younger nephew is finally smiling!! :P

I'm still in a holiday mood! Don't feel like going back to work 2mr.. :/

2009-01-06T05:14:00.000-08:00

"Your church will rise to be
The hands to reach the lost
and meet the unmet need
We will be a revolution
We take a stand today
And put our hands to what we know
oh God we pray
We will be a revolution.."
(Rise - London Hillsongs)

2009-01-04T08:19:00.000-08:00

"I don't think I can do it, that person would do better than me.."

I've been struggling with this inferiority mentality for years.. And i've been listening to the lies and holding back.. But God is changing the way i see myself..

God even spoke to me abt tis through the movie "Kung Fu Panda"! hahaha.. How tis panda was destined to be the dragon warrior and no one else could defeat the enemy except him! And he did not even noe kung fu at all!

Even when the 5 kung fu experts tried to defeat the enemy, they failed! Coz no matter how many excuses the panda could give himself and how others may view him, he was THE CHOSEN ONE to be the dragon warrior and defeat the enemy! No one else could do that for him! :) The movie is super cute and funny! I love it! :)

It's just like how God calls a person to fulfil His destiny... No one else will have that kind of anointing and capacity to do so coz God has specifically wired and equip that unique person to fulfil this particular calling and destiny.

Even when the person disobeys or strays away from that calling, God will still bring about events/situations so that person will ultimately come back and fulfil that destiny! :) Thank God for His grace and mercy! :)

Nearing the end of last year, God has placed in my heart such a burden for the worship ministry that I cant stand a mixture of wrong heart attitudes, lack of discipline and lukewarmness anymore..

I was afraid of what people might say and I compromised the standards on which my foundation was built upon in serving Him in the worship ministry.

It should never be out of a duty that we serve Him and serving Him should be full of joy because we love Him! He is the King of Kings and He deserves our respect and wholehearted worship!

God specifically chose the Levites to usher in His presence because they knew the proper order / standards and they knew how to enter and dwell in His presence.

I'm gonna build up these worshippers (Levites) and things are gonna change..

Lord, I do not want to fear man but honor Your name. Give me the courage and wisdom to set things right.

"In that day he will be your sure foundation,
providing a rich store of salvation, wisdom and knowledge.
The fear of the Lord will be your treasure."
(Isaiah 33:6)

2009-01-01T05:04:00.000-08:00

Welcome 2009!! :D

I almost din make it to watchnite service yest coz i was late.. :/ but i'm glad i made it! I would never wanna miss watchnite service!

And i'm realli encouraged and inspired by the testimonies! :) especially how God provided the money for Auntie Jenny to come up wif her 2nd cd! :) All she needed to do was to trust Him for what her mind thought was impossible.. wow..

I'm realli glad that the gals Sam, Dee and Alicia stayed throughout the whole watchnite service! haha.. I tot they will go for prata coz they were bored.. I was like that b4, I remember missing watchnite service before when i was much younger and goin to the playground to play wif some youths... and rena had to chase us back.. haha..

I'm glad that you gals have matured! :)

Thank you Daddy God for carrying me through this year!

Thank God for providing me with this job and being wif me through the ups and downs at work.

Thank God for a great boss and frens at work.

Thank God for His patience and unfailing love for me.

Thank God for using me despite of my weaknesses.

Thank God for His provison for me and my family.

Thank God for His promise that He will lift up me and my family's heads up and He will bring a breakthrough!

Thank God for assuring me over and over again that I do not need to worry about my future becoz He will fulfil all that concerns my life!

Thank God that He is already doing a stirring and work in the hearts of the youth!

Thank God for the increase that He is going to bring! :)

"Greater things are yet to come
Greater things are still to be done.."

2008-12-13T05:27:00.001-08:00

Youth Conference 2008

Thank God for the youth conference and for Ps Ban who took the step of faith to plan this! Thank God for giving us a pastor who has a BIG vision and heart for the youth! :)

I'm realli inspired by the stories and passion of Ps Kel Steiner! How he chose to take that step of faith to go in2 the mission field at the age of 23 (tt's my age! =P) and how he depended totally on God for the money and when he goes to minister to the hardest of places.

His life is an adventure! His adventures beats having to seat in front of the computer Mondays to Fridays! I want my life to be an adventure too! I wanna discover and walk in that purpose and destiny that is way beyond myself!

I'm also inspired by Aunty Rowena's heart of worship. When she sings and dance, it's like looking at God's beautiful bride and you can just feel His pleasure and delight. :) I enjoyed the simple worship moments when we just Ooo and Ahhh to God and the sound was so beautiful! :D

There was so much freedom and breakthrough in the place when we worshipped. And alot of us experienced another deeper level in God! :)

Just like what Aunty Rowena says that when we worship, it's just like we are mirroring heaven and when God's presence is there, His angels will be there too. Shaun saw angels and I saw the God in His splendor and beauty! :)

I'm glad to see Clara, Evan and Sophia so excited and joyful when they danced! :) They danced realli well! :D

I'm glad to see Raj bringing his frens for the evangelistic nite! I'm so encouraged by his boldness and faith! :D

I'm glad for the opportunities that I get to mix with the HAC and THOP people! :) I believe there will be many more opportunities like this! :D

The fiery flags!

Nana and her pretty ballerina accessories hanger.. :)

haha.. Raj looks realli nerdy here.. Bt he can sure act.. :)

The mime.. God and adam.. They mime realli well! :D

haha.. this is veri funny scene of worship! :P Sheela has got acting abilities lor! :P

"Let there be light, let there be light".. The song keeps ringing in my head! haha.. But I love this dance! Shld hav taken a video of it!

Holy Fire.. Do you feel like you got more muscles on your arms chris? :P

2008-12-07T21:00:00.000-08:00

Yay! I completed my 1st 10km Standard Chartered marathon!! I feel such a sense of accomplishment! :D

I never imagine that I would run a marathon coz I remember when Yixin asked me to run 10km with her a year ago, I told her I cant run lar, will end up walking.. :P and amazingly i ran the whole marathon without walking! :)

Thank God for giving me the strength to endure the whole way through.. It wasnt easy and there were times that I realli felt like giving up, especially when the end point seemed so far away..

Overall, it was a good experience! It realli taught me alot about persevering on.. I wanna run some more marathons! :P

The super nice adidas shirt! :)

At the start of the run, walking towards the starting point..

The nice morning skyview! :)

At the end of the run.. :D

The cool reflection on the MRT.. :P

My 1st marathon medal! :D

The front (top) and back (below) of the medal.

2008-12-02T06:55:00.000-08:00

Happy 23rd birthday Peiling! :D

I realli enjoyed the sentosa package! So fun! We took the cable car, tiger sky tower, merlion, butterfly park, ludge and skyride and went to watch songs of the sea! And Peiling din even imagine I would bring her there.. we felt like tourists! haha..

Thanks to my dear sis who knows sentosa so well and she became our tour guide for the day! :P Thank God for the super good weather and I saw many lovely sky views and sunset! It was breathtaking! :D

I sabo-ed peiling and made her wear a tiara! haha... someone wanted to look like a princess on her b'day mah.. :P

After the sentosa tour, we went to vivo and ate Dian Xiao Er and the food was yummy! :P The finale for the nite were the fireworks! I was so surprised that they had fireworks that nite and it was astounding! What a way to end a birthday celebration eh? :D

I'm glad that Peiling enjoyed herself (even tho she was sick) and managed to surprise her even tho she's always the super alert and I'm the blur one.. haha.. Happy birthday once again princess! :D

2008-10-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

Thank you sam and serene for planning a surprise advance b'day celebration for me. :) So notti of them to lie to me.. haha..

It started wif a simple sms from serene asking me to accompany her to suntec to shop for shoes.. Actualli i did suspect somethin at 1st coz suntec was not a realli a shoppin area for shoes.. Bt ok, i will go along wif it..

Then 2day on the way to suntec, Sam mentioned somethin abt booking me the next weekend to go eat xiao long bao at Crystal Jade so I guessed that they are not planning anythin 2day so I did not suspect anythin further throughout the whole bus journey... smart move sam.. :P

We were supposed to go to a Noodle House restaurant to eat lunch and then...

Serene: My fren is eating at Crystal Jade and I want to go say hi 2her 1st.

Me: Huh? Can we go say hi to her after we have our lunch? Super hungry leh.. *stomach growls*

Serene: Oh there's Crystal Jade, let's go in and say hi 1st..

So i juz stood outside for awhile and I saw Sam and serene happily going in.. I was tinking how come sam knows serene's fren too? Feeling hungry and abit grouchy I didnt tink so much so I followed lor..

Lo and behold, I saw auntie Lee Noi, Chris and Rayson sitting there smiling happily at me..

Surprise! haha.. I muz realli applaud serene and sam's acting skills! :P They realli caught me off-guard! Notti notti.. :P

Bt the xiao long bao at crystal jade is super nice! *slurps* 1st time trying it.. :P

Then after that we had mudpie at The Coffee Club! :P

This is simply the best mudpie!! :D

Chris wants all 3 mudpies! Look at how greedy he is! :D He did eat 1 and a half mudpie though.. :P

I love the orange seats! :P

I realli appreciate all your company for making my day so special! :D

At Vera's cellgroup on Fri..

Mocha triangular cake from crystal jade.. crystal jade again! haha..

It was the 1st time that Joseph learnt how to blow candles!! Super cute! Muz get the video from Vera! :P

I actualli did not plan to go cellgrp on that day coz i was not feeling too well and vera had to let the cat out of the bag and tell me that they are planning to celebrate my b'day.. :P

But I'm glad I went coz I was veri blessed by the time of sharing and their company.. :)

I feel so blessed already even b4 I officially turn 23... :P

2008-10-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

Renana gave birth on saturday, 11th Oct!

His name is Joel Lee Tian Neng. "Joel" means "The Lord is God" and "Tian Neng" means "Nothing is impossible with God".. I hope i got the Joel part right.. :P

Here are her baby pics!! :D

The star of the day! :D

Joel opening part of his eyes..he muz be wondering why there are so many handphones around him.. :P

Orhhhh.. this is cute! I feel like squeezing his cheeks! :P

hahaha.. he looks quite cute crying too.. :P

Nana looks like a proud mom! :P

And another proud mommy.. :P

Chris carried him too! :P 1st time see him so gentle.. lolx..

Our heads look like we are in a "Do Re Mi" position.. Lolx.. Carrying newborn babies are not that scary after all.. My heart melted when he opened his eyes and looked at me.. :P

Nana putting a nurse practice into good use by re-wrapping the baby! Bravo nana bravo! :D

I miss renana loads!

2008-10-07T22:30:00.000-07:00

We had a SMU recruitment nite a few weeks ago at EY.. and i got to be the bus IC and usher.. so fun! :)

I didnt noe graduate recruitments were so cool.. :P and it was a grand event with good food and layout to impress the students.. :P they even had a butler to to cut tenderloin steak for you! *yummy* :P

Super nice food.. It looks small but can be veri filling after eating alot of it.. i love the prawns! :P

The tiramisu was heavenly! :P

Me and chipmunk! :P

My best lunch mates! :D

Cheers! :D

Waiting for the students to come back from the orientation to give them our goodie bags! :P we looked like we went shopping! :P

I love this pic! all of us look so professional! :P

2008-09-29T21:38:00.000-07:00

These are some of the things that brighten up my day during work.. :P

I got this calculator for only 10 bucks! :P I feel happier doing calculations now! :P Vera even wanted to get this for the whole payroll team.. lolx.. :P

Haha.. Jaslyn's chipmunk collection! Those are magnetic bookmarks that I got for her b'day and she made it in2 an artpiece on her CPU.. haha..

Jaslyn gave me a chipmunk sticker to stick on my fone.. makes me feel happier when I answer call too.. Oh dear, I think I'm starting to like chipmunks and winnie the pooh.. :P

2008-09-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

It's been 3 years since I last ran and I felt a sense of accomplishment when I ran 4km yesterday.. :P bt my legs are aching badly now.. :/

Used to like running long distances in secondary sch (especially cross-country) but I did not have any more motivation after I graduated.. haha.. so I thank God for Serene and Sam who are my motivators to join the Standard Chartered Marathon.. :P

There were times during the run where I felt like giving up (espcially during the slope and towards the end) and I told myself I cant run anymore.. But something within me told me to keep running.. Just keep running, just keep running (to the tune of Dory :P)..

God reminded me through this run how I can persevere on, even in ministry.. Coz there are times during this week that I felt discouraged or alone.. That no matter how tough it can get, God will always be there to give me the strength and perseverence to finish the race..

"Therefore since we are surrounded by such a great a cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders & the sin which so easily entangles & let us run with perseverence the race marked out for us." (Hebrews 12:1)

And God spoke through the speakers yest & 2day abt faith.. one thing that caught me when
Ps Ban It was speaking was:

"If faith can move mountains, then we can change the landscape of Singapore!"

haha.. so cool! Imagine if i speak and the S'pore Flyer appears right in front of my house! jkjk.. :P

But ya, what we speak carries the power to change things, change how we see ourselves even..

Speak to the mountains
And they will humble themselves
Nothing is impossible
Stand on the promise He made
With a heart full of faith
Nothing is impossible
We're living in revival..

Will blog more often when I get my new computer.. :P

2008-08-22T16:15:00.000-07:00

This one of the rare days where i feel super free at work.. I'm actualli blogging from my workplace.. oops... :P

Went for a meeting with Ps Ban yesterday.. and I din noe that he has such big plans/dreams in stored for us.. looks like I was not the only clueless one yesterday.. :P Never in my mind would I imagine we would have such a place or an opportunity to serve God in such a way! :D

I don't know how and I don't when but I'm gonna cling onto His word in Psalm 32:8..

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go
I will guide you with My eye."

I'm realli excited to see things happening and unfolding b4 my very eyes.. Take for example the youth rally and the youth conference that is gonna take place.. I never knew we would even be hosting it! God sees our heart and faithfulness and He is indeed bringing us beyond what we can ask or imagine! wow! :D

2008-06-28T06:08:00.000-07:00

Thank God for giving us the opportunity to have the MINDS ppl come over our church! Yup, realli being His hands and feet to reach out to them and show them God's love! :D and i also got to know some of the trainers and interacted with them.. We should have more opportunities like this! :)

Muz realli praise God also for giving val, nana and me the inspiration and creativity to come with the dance item! :) We only took 3 days to practice and we flowed and sychronized our steps realli well! :) and i keep watching our dance video over and over again.. so nice! well done gals! and nana dances like a graceful swan! :D

The admin team hard at work! They did a realli good job! :)

Auntie Lee Noi teaching Jason how to tie balloons! :P

The worship team.. They did a realli good job in choosing the songs and doing the actions! :)

Our dance item.. "Super strong God, You love me.." :)

Nope, this is not for eating.. :P It's for making names out of it.. :)

Raj is so proud of his macaroni stick.. :P

Cool shot of Lele twirling the flags.. :)

2008-06-15T22:55:00.000-07:00

I realli enjoyed the Word explosion yesterday! All of the performances were so good and i love Alvin and Chris's songs! I could realli sense the anointing when they sang their songs!

I always admire ppl who got the gift of composing songs coz it's not easy leh.. So when will our veri own Sojs CD be out ar? :P

I enjoyed miming wif Ser, dot, nana, shee, ele and val.. had lots of fun and laughter during our 2hrs of prac! :P hehe.. wat a creative idea Serene! :D never tot we cld mime out a bible passage like that.. hehee..

It's been a trying week for me this week.. But thank God for carrying me thru it! So many times i forget that He is with me and I tend to do things by my own strength.. Thank God for Auntie Lee Noi who kept encouraging me and for Aunty Yang Meng's B.S sessions and testimonies that realli spur me on.. :)

This is a late post about my experience during church camp...

1) MSG sessions
The sessions realli tot me how to step out much more in faith instead of hesitating in fear and doubts.. and I can see visions much more clearer and faster now.. :P

2) Worship
God free-ed me to realli dance with Him during one of the nite sessions.. I've been holding back coz I did not want to dance for ppl to see.. But after Ps Mary prayed for me, I felt so free in my spirit to dance with juz my hands and feet, and I felt Him dancing with me.. That feeling is so loving and romantic.. hehe.. dun realli noe hw to describe it lar.. But i realli enjoyed dancing with Him.. :)

3) Restoring of relationships
God also restored my friendship with Val.. I've not realli been a veri best of best frens wif her lar.. Bt thru bunking wif her, we had the opportunity to hear each other out and understood each other better.. And that realli brought us closer.. :)

There are alot of other things that I learnt bt I'll juz mention the main points lar... Go to my facebook album and check out the camp fotos.. :P

2008-05-28T21:32:00.000-07:00

We had HR bonding yesterday and we got to knock off from work at 3.30pm! :P All of us headed down to Orchard to sing Karaoke.. super pai seh at 1st but even our director sang so we all had to sing! haha..

Then we headed down to Royal Plaza On Scotts Hotel for buffet dinner! :D The ambience is quite nice and the seafood is veri fresh.. But i love the dessert the most! :P

On the left: Our director Hock Kheng and the new guy Kok Heng. Keep gettin their names mixed up lor.. haha.. Kok Heng can sing realli realli well, he kena saboed to sing for D&D already! Lolx..

Our director can play the tambourine lor! He is one super nice director, realli humble and doesnt put up a front.. He goes to church too.. :)

I love the chocolate fondue!! I could have ate more if i din eat so much food.. ~heavenly!~

The colourful array of mousse and cake desserts! My favorite! Tis gal is Jaslyn who converted from temp to perm wif me.. super sweet gal and she can realli help them commercialize their desserts! :P

Vera can realli eat alot lor! She eats realli slowly but alot! I crown her the buffet queen! haha.. see how happy she is wif her desserts? :P

Group pic! :D Majority of the HR team are made up of young ppl.. God answered my prayers coz i told Him that i wanted to work wif young ppl.. :P i realli enjoy wrkin wif them! :)

The nice gift that the planning team made for all of us.. it's in my fav color too.. nice! :)

I realli thank God for enabling me the past few weeks since i started this job.. It's much more manageable now and i'm enjoying myself at work! :D

2008-05-15T22:15:00.000-07:00

Here I am on my knees
Lord I know it's You i need
I am weak on my own
I can't walk this road alone

So i come into Your mercy
Here I find Your outstretched arms
I am loved without condition
I'm made whole
I am free...

I know I cant do it on my own, tt's when i get desperate and really depend on Him.. Even though i feel inadequate and dun see things moving, i'll still hold on to the vision that God placed in my heart for the team..

2008-05-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

I love the month of May coz there are TWO public holidays! Wheee... when u start working, you will so look forward to public holidays! :P

Watched Iron man yesterday.. and i din noe that iron man evolve quite differently from the rest of the heroes.. tot it wld be some iron hittin him and he became the iron man! haha...

Bt it was about a guy who was a genius at creating weapons and he created a robot armor for himself to run away from his enemies.. Quite cool and i enjoyed it.. :)

Din get to go blading with the rest 2day coz my feet was not fully recovered.. i dun even noe hw i sprained it lor..

Wanted to sleep the whole afternoon 2day bt couldnt coz i was feeling so hot and grouchy!

Then instead of moaning and groaning, i went into my mom's room and guess what i did?

I switched on the air-con and started a bible study called "Woman of God" with my sis and mom! haha..

I've been wanting to do that for a long time coz i feel that i've not been spending enuff time with them and when i get tired from work, i will tend to isolate myself from them coz i juz dun feel like talking..

Bt if i wanna see my family bonded in love, i've got to start doing somethin instead of ignoring/neglecting them..

I did not prepare in advance for anything and it turned out to be a realli encouraging session where we shared our hearts and struggles..

I felt my faith started rising when we held hands and prayed for one another and believed God to bring a breakthrough and healing..

I believed that realli changed the spiritual atmosphere of my home and the circumstances around! :)

I could feel God's pleasure too.. I'm glad i chose to do the right thing.. :D

"I am MORE than an overcomer in Christ Jesus!"

2008-04-27T07:16:00.000-07:00

I'm rather overwhelmed at the amount of work that i need to do after taking on the permanent role..

Coz the person that resigned, did not walk thru the whole process with me and left a number of "debts" that i have to clean up! and i stil feel so blur as to what i need to do! :(

I've been doubting myself, doubting God, tinking that i cant do it.. my fears and worries have become a huge mountain b4 me and i forget how much bigger my God is..

Bt thank God for His assuring promises over and over again through ppl and His word..

When the oceans rise
and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God...

I do not want to worry about 2mr, coz 2mr will take care of itself.. I'm gonna take it one day, one step at a time and depend on God's grace to carry me thru..

Fear not, for I am with you

2008-04-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

I had lots of fun doing "Seed planting" yesterday! :D The servers finally get to play instead of always being the station masters! haha.. :P

I realli enjoyed running with my team members, shee, nat and evan! :)

Shee and i kept saying we're getting too old for this coz the sec 1 gals are always running way ahead of us! bt we realli needed the exercise! :P

Thank God for Nat who knows the area pretty well and Evan who is super quick in searching for info! Wouldnt have completed the race without them! :)

I'm glad that i also got the opportunity to know the sec 1 gals better coz i never get to talk to them during youth service.. :)

The pic that Sam low made us run to and fro to take! wah..

Thank God for ray, ser, sam, arun, jerry and abel who planned this race and made it so fun! Well done! :D

I believe that the seeds (God's word) that we planted will bear fruit and grow! :)

2008-04-03T21:09:00.000-07:00

It's only been one month since i worked at EY and my collegues are already keen on converting me to be a perm staff based on my performance.. Tt's pretty fast, i din expect tt..

Bt I don't know if that is good or bad.. The good thing is the pay and the benefits coz it's such a big company..

The bad thing is the O.T (bt i've been coming back on time now) and having to wrk wif numbers everyday?

Actualli, I dun realli like to work wif numbers, tt's y i din take up accounts! Bt my collegue says that the whole payroll team does not realli like numbers too? What is most impt is that i'm meticulous..

And amazingly i'm kinda enjoyin working wif numbers now coz i've been able to solve the discrepancies! Thank God! :) maybe tis is my hidden ability tt i never knew b4.. haha..

Oh, and i love wrking wif excel spreadsheets, been learning alot of new and smart stuff using excel.. like V-lookup! :P

A perm staff in another section juz left this week also.. and Jaslyn says she's keen to become perm, if i convert to perm too.. and i love her company! Her laughing is contagious! :P

Could this be God's open door for me?

I wanna be at the right place, at the right time.. His plans are to give me a hope and a future.. His ways and tots are much higher then mine.. Take my hand and lead me, Daddy God..

2008-03-26T22:01:00.000-07:00

I received tis sms from Candice on Monday and it realli encouraged me and made my day! :D since she cant come to church and testify abt it, i'll share tis testimony for her.. :P

From Candice>>
"Oh n btw, u noe i was really sad after my chem paper, thinking i confirm fail one. but den rite, i managed to pass exactly on e dot for my chem! like ON E DOT! i was so so suprised! Thank God who made this possible! n thnk u for all ur prayers and encouragement too! :)"

Wow.. so encouraged to see her praising God and relying on Him! :)

2008-03-21T07:33:00.000-07:00

My new orange sofa set is finally here!! i love it!! :D

And Serene, sam, chris and ray came to my house 2day and got the priviledge to help me season the new sofa 2day.. haha.. we had a good laugh while serene and sam attempted to cook dinner.. :P it's been awhile since i had a such a laugh.. haha.. i hate cockroaches! :P

Thank God i dun have to do O.T. for this whole week! whew! I needed the rest! and i realized i've been complaining and murmuring about alot of stuff (eg: IR8 forms! :/) and God corrected me abt tt..

It's not so much wat i do, bt the attitude in which i do it.. My actions and words realli reflects on the God i'm serving.. and when i choose to praise Him and thank Him instead, i feel that things turn out so much better for me.. :)

Praise Him in everything! :)

My two new collegues, Charmaine and Jaslyn.. :)

Pearlyn hard at work.. :P din manage to take serene hard at work bt i knew she was super fast at folding letters.. Jaslyn said like machine like tt.. :P i thank God for all ur help, gals! :D

God has also shown me that there is no part in my life tt He is not concerned about and He wants to be involved in everything i want, need or do. So let Him in!

His timing is never too early or too late and He can use all opportunities to fulfil His plans and purposes..

2008-02-27T21:44:00.000-08:00

I was just talking with Vera yesterday about how i missed playing netball/basketball every sunday! It's been so many years!!

And then i saw this foto on facebook... :P

This was taken in year 1999!! wow.. See if u can spot me! din noe i was so tan last time.. :P

My 1st mission trip to Philippines! :P I miss those times!

I wanna go cycling!

I wanna play netball again!

I miss doing sports! :(

2008-02-25T21:47:00.000-08:00

"Your attention please, we have experienced a tremor in the building. Everybody stay calm while we do an investigation."

My 1st day at work and i'm experiencing a shaking already! haha..

And the shaking reminded me of our gatekeepers inside joke about Alvin Tay! "The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes.. " Muhahahaha.. :P Wanna noe wat the joke is about? Come for gatekeepers! :D

I looked at my collegue and asked "Did you feel anything?" Our whole HR department did not even feel anything lor.. Apparently the tremor came from Sumatra.. bt thank God it was not a serious one!

1st day at work was ok bt the office is kinda small and i'm cramped in one corner.. bt at least i get the best scenery view! :P

And Vera is my boss! Feels weird to have a church fren as ur boss bt it's also a blessing to have a boss like her! haha.. and throughout the day in the office, i cld hear Vera's hearty laughter! Thank God for a joyful boss! :D

Obedience...

2008-02-25T21:00:00.000-08:00

"For as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous." [Rom 5:19]

God has been teaching me about how important obedience is.. how when our choice to obey or disobey not only affects us, it affects others, possibly many others..

I've disobeyed b4, learnt it the hard way and reaped the consequences.. Bt now i also see how when i choose to obey, that He realli moves on my behalf and cause it to bear fruit for His glory..

Like how Daddy God placed in my heart ppl that i shld speak to bt i held back coz of excuses and fears.. and when i did not do it, He can send other ppl to come and nag at you! :P

I want to make choices that will impact the generations after me!

Let my people Grow!

2008-02-21T23:10:00.000-08:00

It's been 3 weeks of a good break for me.. wanted to do more during this period of time, bt it's time for me to move on, especially when my bank account is depleting.. haha..

Thanks to Vera, I'll be starting a new HR job next week... a good opportunity for me to explore tt area.. :)

Dunno y, bt i'm feelin kinda nervous coz it's a big company.. dunno hw things are gonna turn out bt i'm just gonna trust in Him.. He makes all things beautiful in His time..

As i yield myself to You
Move in my life like never before..

2008-02-13T21:13:00.000-08:00

Thank you Shee and Chris for accompanying me to SKS bookshop yest.. even tho i knew you were bored wif spending 3hrs at a bookshop! hehe..

Ok, i admit i can be veri indecisive lar.. bt if u noe me better, u will understand why.. :P

Anyways, I din find the worship bible study material tt i was supposed to look for bt i found what i needed!

Yes! I had this book b4 and it went missing! and i finally found it! or rather chris found it for me.. :P it was the last copy some more!

This was the book tt i felt we need instead of knowing more about worship.. Connecting wif God is wat some of them are lacking.. and the author realli knows how to put it in a veri practical way! :)

I also managed to get a long overdue present at the bookshop! So it was a fruitful trip afterall! :D

This book also helped me wif my preparation for this sat's sharing.. so it's realli timely!

I was even quite anxious coz i din had a topic to share.. bt when i looked back on my journal the past few weeks, i realized that He has already been speaking and preparing me for what i'm gonna share this sat..

It's amazing how you don't need to look so hard for it bt God juz opens it before you.

I finally understand the truth as to what (Matthew 6:32b) says "For your heavenly Father KNOWS that you NEED all these things."

So if He knows our needs, will He not provide? :)

2008-02-11T23:48:00.000-08:00

Stayed at home the whole day 2day... Got alot of things on my mind and din want to think too much either..

And so i popped in Ps Benny Ho's cd on "Worship that rocks".. Wah, and he realli teach on this topic in depth man coz one cd was realli long! haha..

But one thing that realli caught me was the part on "The Lion's Roar". How the Lion's roaring shows the authority over the territory that they have.

And he realli asked the congregation to roar and i cld hear the ppl roaring in the cd! Sounded kinda funny lar.. Bt he said we need to practice it! :P

Then it reminded me of the cartoon movie "The wild" that i watched at alvin's house on sat.. How the lion was so held back by his fears of a bull since young.. the bull shld be afraid of him instead coz he was the lion, the King of the jungle lor.. bt the lion din noe hw powerful he was..

In the end, he finally found his roar back when he was saving his son and that roar was super powerful to scare the enemy! It was inside him all along, juz that he had to DARE to let it out!

I kinda felt like that lion though.. always held back by my fears and excuses tt i cant do it..

But tt boldness and confidence is in each one of us. We juz have to dare to let it out from deep within us!

Guess wat i did after listening to the cd?

I started ROARING literally!! Even my sis started roaring back at me! haha..

I roared and prayed and claimed back the destinies of the ppl who were wanderin away.. I dun care how long it's gonna take, how much heartache it may cause me..

These are lives and precious gems so IMPORTANT to God and i'm not gonna fold my arms, wait for somethin bad to happen and say "See, i told u so." I'm gonna do something abt it!

Can you hear the ROAR
of a mighty army
Thundering through the land...

2008-02-11T23:09:00.000-08:00

This is super funny! LOOK below...

I was eatin my mui fan last week and saw their menu on the cardboard cover.. I cldnt stop laughing when i saw this! My gosh! How can they spell my favourite deer meat dish wrongly?? :/

2008-01-31T21:18:00.000-08:00

The interior design of the 3M office! :P

This is our open-concept pantry! So nice! Gt my favourite colors! :P

My demanding supervisor! :P

Cheryl, the new perm staff.. She's realli nice to talk to and i'm glad she came coz she realli brighten up my working days at 3M! :P

My mom ask if i would stay in 3M to work if given the chance to.. U noe wats my answer?

No! My bosses are real workaholics man! They still gotta work when they go home and send emails at 12 midnite! That's ridiculous!

I'll miss the nice place and the ppl there bt not the work! I'm free from systems and customer's emails! Yay! :P

2008-01-30T22:45:00.000-08:00

3M has shifted to Yishun!!!! And it's only 3 bus-stops away from my home! :P

The new office looks so sophisticated and stylish compared to old run-down building at Tagore Lane! It felt like we stepped into some showroom like that, the interior designs are super nice!

But i'll only get to enjoy the new office for 4 days! :/ Maybe i shld have requested to stay longer to enjoy the luxury of the short distance to work and enjoy the new place some more.. haha..

But NAH.. After 2mr, i'll be FREE from work!!!! :D

Red is classy and stylish! I'll only agree to a red sofa set if my house is designed like that! haha.. :P

The only thing i don't like about the partitioning is the clear glass in front of u! You can see your neighbour so clearly lor! No privacy! But i like the working space area, much more spacious and clean.. hehe..

Only managed to take a few fotos, will snap more tomorrow! :P

Looks like i can start bloggin more after 2mr.. :P the reason why i stopped for awhile was because i could not stand having to face the computer after work when i am already so glued to the computer the whole day at work! O_O

2008-01-14T00:58:00.000-08:00

I'm glad i went for the Heidi Baker conference and even got the priviledge to seat in guest seats.. :P Didnt want to go at 1st thinking i'll be too tired and all that.. but thanks to Chris's "nagging", saying "How hungry are you for the anointing?" :)

It's really refreshing and i did not feel sleepy at all during the sermons.. I dun even need to go out for altar calls and God touched me there and then when i was sitting in my seat..

It realli opened my eyes as to how God can use these woman to be so dependant and child-like in Him.. And the boldness and authority that come forth from their mouth when they prayed and spoke.. I want that! :)

What Heidi spoke about resting and trusting in God realli spoke to me.. I want to find that place of rest in His heart daily coz i need it more than the doing..

Take me to that place Lord
Where there's nothing else
but me and You
Longing for Your presence
I know that You'll calling out to me

Here i stand
And long for Your embrace
Nothing else could ever take Your place...

2008-01-01T00:38:00.000-08:00

It's a brand new year!

I've got tons of things to update bt haven got the time to realli blog abt it.. :/ this is gonna be a quick post..

2007 was a tough and tryin year for me bt thank God for carryin me thru it all! God has opened my eyes to many things and i have grown alot thru it.. :)

Welcome 2008! It's a brand new start! The old has gone and the new has come! Yup, i'm gonna start on a clean slate.. :)

Was thinking abt wat i wanted to ask God for 2008 b4 i went for watchnite service.. and i found myself saying this prayer..

Lord, expand my capacity, my heart and faith to serve You..Enlarge my vision and help me to see people and things from Your perspective.. I want to experience the reality of You and Your word..

Arise, shine for your light has come! :)

Quick update on my job:
I felt that God has closed the door for me to stay in my current job at 3M coz they hired someone else already aft i came back from my hols.. Anyway i already knew it deep inside of me tt that wasnt what God wanted for me..

Bt i believe that God will open another door (confirmed thru a word that someone released to me) and He will prepare a path b4 me..

He makes ALL things beautiful in His time.

2007-12-09T00:30:00.000-08:00

Imgaine that Jesus shows you a large beautiful book with ur name embossed in gold. It is filled with your destiny - all of the plans and dreams He ever had for you on earth, all your battles and tears, your victories and defeats.

As He opens it, your secret history is revealed in the various chapters and seasons of your life. Revelation and glory comes off the pages.

Then His gaze shifts to a small thin book, and He says to you, "This is what you have accomplished so far."

Your eyes are drawn back to the Large book of what is ahead.

"I have so much more for you!" He says.

"Will you go on the high adventures with Me?"

"Will you trust Me?"
[extracted from Jill Austin's book "Dancing with Destiny"]

When i read this, i was like WOW, i wanna discover all of that He has planned for me!

Honestly, I've been feeling so dissatisfied with my job and everything..

Deep down inside, i know that i am created for MORE than what i am presently living...

2007-12-08T07:42:00.000-08:00

Nothing beats having a best fren doing something so sweet for you on a cold night, when you come home feeling super tired and down with a flu..

Guess what did Peiling do this time?

haha.. she bought me a nice warm and snuggly princess blanket! and this is supposed to be my christmas present! super early hor? :P bt it's so SWEET of her to do that for me! *heart melts* i love walt disney princesses! :P It really cheered me up! :D

An apple a day keeps the doctor away. Notice the green apple? She watched Enchanted too and she said red apples are poisonous so she bought me a green one! haha.. lame lar.. :P

The blanket is super comfy and warm, i slept realli well that nite! Thank you so much! Love you gal! :D

2007-11-17T22:34:00.000-08:00

I saw a double rainbow last week while walkin to church.. :) The 2nd one is on the left-hand side, bt was blurred by the clouds.. it's the 1st time that i ever saw a double rainbow! :D

Coz it reminded me of God's promise of something good.. and a rainbow always appear after a storm.. :)

I used to think that i struggle alone, that there was no one i could tell about how i really felt.. or maybe sometimes i juz don't know how to say it.. so i sort of swept it all under a rug, thinkin it wld somehow go away, that i dun have to face it..

But events happened that sort of surfaced all that i realli felt inside and i'm glad i got the courage to share it out last week.. things i never tot i wld say/feel juz came out, and i felt somethin lifted off my chest... thank God for Dot, pastor and his wife.. :)

I guess it takes alot of courage to be real with how we realli feel or even to say it to others..

And it's the enemy's lie to think we are struggling all alone, coz God has placed ppl around us to help and to encourage us.. bt the 1st step has to come from daring to share it..

Thank God also for Auntie Lee Noi, i never tot i cld share so much with her.. She has a mother's heart.. :)

During gatekeepers yest, God told me to "Come out and come up, and He will show me.."

Come out of looking at my own limitations and circumstances.. Come up to soar with Him, to see things from an eagle's eye view, from a higher persepective.. I was made to soar! :)

In my weaknesses, His strength is made perfect!

2007-10-31T22:58:00.000-07:00

This is the 1st time i ever encountered such a tough temp admin job.. Tot i cld juz relax and do something light for awhile b4 i take a holiday break for december..

BUT NO.. there are tons of systems to learn and tons of orders to process! i realli felt like i got an Accounting cum IT job lor! and i totally dislike these two the most! :/

Staring at the computer screen the whole day is no joke, and i feel my eyes growin smaller! :/

arghh.. why am i complaining so much? But thank God that i managed to get the hang of most of the systems 2day... whew..

Been feeling rather moody these few days and questioning God about things that i don't see happening! My heart aches when i see her so weak and stil in pain.. :(

But Daddy God, You promised me and You even showed me! why shld i doubt or even see things as it is right now?

I walk by faith and not by sight
When things go wrong
It will be alright
Coz Someone greater
is watching over me
My God cares too much to say
His mercies are new everyday
I get on my knees and then help is on its way...

2007-10-29T22:54:00.000-07:00

My mom is out of hospital! Yay! Praise God! I miss her at home! :D

I'm starting a new job at 3M tomorrow and it's not a science job.. :P It's so near church area, gt one direct bus from my house to go there somemore! Yay! :)

I wanna dream, dream the impossible, dream BIG..

2007-10-25T00:53:00.000-07:00

Last fri was my last day at wrk at SGH.. which means i'm quite free now.. maybe it's timely tt i ended the job at this specific time..

I gt more time to look aft my mom, sis and the household chores.. More time to think things thru and more time to read!

Here are some pics..

My bench where i do loads of protein work (western blot)!

The laminar flow hood where i do my cell cultures.. everythin beyond the glass panel has to be sterile (free of contamination)!

The incubator where all the cells are kept healthy and alive..

Me and my supervisor! Super patient and a woman of wisdom! :)

Me and Ezan.. i onli knew her for one month and we clicked off realli well and became good frens.. a sweet, smart and nice gal.. :)

Me and Diniesh.. realli encouraged by this guy, always sendin smses and emails to encourage ppl.. and two of my biotech frens are in the same cellgrp as him! What a small world! :P

Ezan, me, Kala.. Kala is the person tt joined me to learn the keyboard and always send funny emails! :P

Me and the two aunties tt i always tok to in the pantry.. :P

From Left: Sylvia, me, C.K. (aka Charming King! He calls himself tt! :P) They always make me smile and brighten up my day! :)

I'm gonna miss the ppl there! :/

2007-10-24T22:21:00.000-07:00

You are the peace
that guards my heart
My help in times of need
You are the hope that leads me on
And brings me to my knees
For there i find You waiting
And there i find release
So with all my heart i worship
And unto You i'll sing...

Tears of frustration, tiredness and hurt rolled down my cheeks as i sang this song..

I've been running to and fro and gettin distracted wif so many things..

Things keep happening one after the other.. Tot i cld take a good break since i ended my job but i got more tired than b4..

God's unfailing love filled my heart once again.. I know for sure that He is with me, He is just right beside me whenever it hurts so badly.. That's His promise and He never goes back on His word.

2007-10-22T01:09:00.000-07:00

Washing clothes!

I hate doin tt! Simply coz i din noe hw to and hav always been relyin on my mommy to do it.. :/

Wah.. Now i can realli understand hw it feels like to do the housewrk! and how i realli appreciated my mommy for doin all the housewrk all this while without complaining!

Mayb, I shld give her a "SuperMom" award! :P

Bt i felt a sense of accomplishment/satisfaction 2day aft i did the laundry! It's like "Yes, i finally did it w/o mommy around!" :P

And so i was like "boastin" abt it when i went to visit my mom juz now.. i did one time onli and i wanted her to feel proud of me.. so thick-skin hor? hehehe.. :P

For those of u who don't know, my mom fell from the bike and hit her head and had bruises here and there.. She had to be admitted in2 hospital last sat..

They did a brain scan and it showed bleedin in the brain, bt i chose not to worry coz worryin is not my portion!

I chose to arise in faith and pray and believe for healing! I believe God can and will heal!

They will need to do another scan and the results will onli be out 2mr..

One thing I know for sure is that my mom is in the safest Hands and that God is in control!

2007-10-21T23:55:00.000-07:00

I'm 22 years young! :P

Double two's and i got a double portion of b'day cake on tis day too!

1st portion>> Cheesecake from Hilton Hotel in church! Super rich and yummy! :) haha.. i remember him raving on and on abt it when he 1st tried tis cheesecake years ago.. :P Thanks sheep! :)

2nd portion>> Prima Deli chocolate cake from Peiling and gang! :P

Thank you all for the b'day wishes and presents! You ppl make my day! :)

2007-10-21T23:00:00.000-07:00

Peiling's 1st suprise for me! A bouquet of flowers! It was realli pai seh for me to hold it from yishun to kathib (tho it was a short distance)!! Imagine everyone on the bus lookin at you! win liao lor..

She brought me to Bottletree park to eat! Yay! i finally get to eat there! haha.. and my 2nd surprise was QX, Janis and Qiu Li were waiting for me there wif cheeky smiles on their faces! :P too bad i din get to take a grp pic wif them..

The b'day cake tt they bought for me! :)

Peiling, the mastermind of it all! Look at her satisfied face! :P She never fails to surprise and make me realli happy on my b'day! :)

The presents that they gave me... All the girly stuff and i love them! and i've been wantin a musical box for veri long! hehehe.. :P

Was actualli feelin quite down the nite b4 and even told peiling tt i wanted to postpone the celebration..

Gave Peiling and QX a "heart-attack" when i said tis, bt in the end they stil managed to surprise me and celebrate my b'day.. hehe..

Thanks Peiling, QX, Janis, Qiu Li and my sis for the wonderful time! i realli enjoyed myself! :)

oh, and i had to take a foto of tis present tt Sam and Ser gave me.. and i know tis was Serene's notti idea to put the snake in! Too bad i'm not afraid of a paper snake lor.. :P They are notti bt i stil love them and the present! :P

2007-10-17T23:15:00.000-07:00

How an Eaglet learns to fly

First of all Mother Eagle comes into the nest one day and startles baby Eagle with her intense wing flapping. She screeches and takes all of baby Eagle's toys and throws them from the nest.

Next goes all of the furry down that has kept baby Eagle comfortable and warm and leaves baby Eagle trying to stand and balance.

Mother Eagle is trying to teach baby a very important lesson here; How to stand. She doesn't push him from the nest before he learns to stand and teach him to fly first because if he could not stand then he would surely fall to his death. So Baby Must learn to stand.

Think of a newborn Christian, safe and sheltered still by all the love of those around him then there comes a time when as a Christian we have a few comforts removed, things get a little rough and trials come our way. It hurts, it pricks but it teaches us to stand on our own two spiritual legs and is preparing us for our Journey.

After Baby masters this task then again comes Mommy Eagle into the nest in what seems like another very bad mood. She screeches and flutters her wings at Baby Eagle backing him up to the edge of the nest finally pushing him over.

Baby Eagle starts to fall, an instinct to live takes over, he starts imitating what he has watched Mom and Dad do while he was sitting in the nest;He watched them fly; He watched them soar.

Instead of giving up he starts flapping his wings but he still lacks the skill. He continues to fall.

Father Eagle has been soaring around the whole time watching it all and at the very last moment and with lightning speed swoops down under baby Eagle and bears him up on his great wings before he reaches the ground.

He returns baby Eagle to the nest only for Momma to start all over again.

Taken from: http://www.geocities.com/kkcandj/learnfrom.html

Cool eh? haha.. poor baby eagle, gotta kena pushed down dunno hw many times b4 it learns to fly.. :P

I see myself as the eaglet wanting to fly, bt at the same time afraid and would rather stay in my comfort zone...

Bt somehow thru ppl/circumstances, i see myself being pushed out of my nest..

I will eventually soar! :)

2007-10-16T22:30:00.000-07:00

As the waters cover the sea
So Your love covers me
Guiding me on roads unknown
I'll trust in You alone
I'll turst in You alone..

And i will soar on wings of eagles
Soaring high above all my fears
I rest in Your open arms of love..
[Saving Grace - United Live "Best Friend"]

I've not been listening to this song for a long long long time.. i remembered listenin to this song over and over again during my Os i tink or was it during my down point in life.. cant remember (shows how long ago that was :P)..

And then dunno y this song suddenly rang inside of me once again.. Nevertheless, the words of this song ministered to me once again.. Thank you Daddy God.. :)

2007-10-15T20:40:00.000-07:00

Me: Mommy, can i have a keyboard as a b'day present? :P

Mommy: *points to the computer keyboard* and says "There!"

My dear sister bursts out in a booming and hearty laughter!

Me: I cant believe mommy is so lame! =/

Anyway, thank God for preserving my voice.. yest i felt like i was on the verge of getting a bad sore throat and fever..

Kept feeling feverish and uncomfortable the whole day and so i laid hands on myself and said "Lord, keep me in perfect health."

And Daddy God answered my simple act of faith! :)

2007-10-14T23:50:00.000-07:00

Y shld i get so affected by someone's emotions?

Y shld i let ppl's opinions affect me?

Y do i always see myself as the least impt?

My opinions matter too.. I am equally important.

I am called to be a warrior NOT a worry-er!

2007-10-13T08:53:00.000-07:00

Salem Chapel's 40th Anniversary celebration! wow.. 40 years of God's faithfulness! :)

People from Salem House! :)

LG foto! :)

Me and Peiling :)

Xue Ni and Yan Ling! :)

2007-10-13T08:00:00.000-07:00

Thank God for Christian who headed the whole musical!

Thank God for Dot who led the band!

Thank God for Amanda who led the choir!

Thank God for Eleanor who sang so beautifully!

All of you did an excellent job! Well done! :D

Thank God for all of us put our hands together to make this celebration possible! :D

2007-10-01T21:36:00.000-07:00

And we decided that..

It shall be called Troy!! :P

I love the way he cocks his head out of curiosity! :P

He realli fell aslp like that lor! so cute! :P

Tummy rub! :P

He is trained to pee and poop on the newspaper already! Took onli one day! Smart Troy! :D I cant wait to teach it some more tricks! :)

2007-09-30T23:56:00.000-07:00

A new member has been added in2 my family!!

Yup, it's a 2-month year old male Jack Russell puppy! :P

Tis guy called Johnny, whose boss is in our church came by 2give away two jack russells puppies 2day! and he even paid for the dog food and puppy treats for me! wow! I'm so blessed! :)

I was realli suprised that my mom even agreed to keep a dog! Me and my sis are so happy lar!

It's so nice to have a cute puppy wagging it's tail, chasing after you and wantin to jump on u! :P

Haven gt a name for it yet.. My sis wanted the name "Joy Joy" coz it realli brings joy to our hearts! Bt sounds like a female name leh.. so we are kinda undecided on the name yet..

It's tiring chasing and cleanin aft it's pee and poop! I tink i lose a few kilos 2day juz doin tt!

But it's veri smart actualli! Can u believe tt it knows hw to Fetch already?? Din even hav to teach lor! me and my sis were so amazed! smart boy! i cant wait to teach it some more tricks! :D

Will update the pics again coz dunno y blogger has problems uploadin my pics.. :/ din take much either coz i was busy playin wif it... hehe..

I'm loving it! :P

2007-09-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

I'm seeing the 1st fruits of our street-E labour! :)

I'm so glad that Yan Ling, Xue Ni and Hui Qi could come for the games and bonding time in our church park!

At 1st i was even afraid tt they wldnt remember me or may not come due to the exam period.. But they did! :)

I remembered how i approached Yan Ling and Xue Ni at Mac's and they had that super blur look on their faces when i gave them the sweets! and they even asked me y i wanna be a christian and how i noe the bible is real kind of qns.. cute and curious qns! :P

And also how i approached Hui Qi who was waiting at KFC for the rain to stop.. and how she shared wif me abt her problems and prayed wif her.. :)

Yup, I'm glad that they were willing to come and had fun during the games! :)

Yan Ling and Xue Ni were super shy during the 1st round of games but when i went to have dinner wif them aft the whole thing, they showed their true colours! They were veri talkative and hyper lor! haha.. i'm glad they warmed up to us! :)

Oh, and durin dinner we discovered 2 classic examples of ppl who:

1) orders wanton noodles but DON'T EAT WANTON [Xue Ni]
2) orders chicken rice but DON'T EAT CHICKEN [Yan Ling]

haha.. usually i onli hear ppl tokin abt tis kind of ppl but now i see it b4 my veri eyes! :P

And after i said bye to them on the mrt, i received a sms from Yan Ling asking me about next week! They want to come and join us again! Yay! Praise God! :)

Thank God for the open doors!
Thank God for the wonderful weather!
Thank God for the yummy food! :D

2007-09-24T22:57:00.000-07:00

Have you ever seek God for directions in your life to the point that you hope God can just throw down a huge sign board to tell you where you should go?

I did!

And of course God wouldnt do that!

I'm in a point of transition, at the crossroads of making a big decision (not marriage lar!), so desperately wanting to know God's specific will for my life..

I was actually offered another job in SGH last week.. I went through TWO interviews and i got it!

BUT.... i did not feel the peace in my heart at all..

Instead of joy, i felt dread.

Instead of thanking God for this job, i asked God again "is this what You really want for me?"

Still, no peace.

Even when i asked my other collegues about this scientist, they had that "look" on their face. Becoz of certain things, they din really like this scientist at all.

It was on thurs (my last day at work) at about 2pm that i called and rejected the job! and i felt quite sad and was thinking to myself when i'll find my next job.

And guess what happened 1 hr later? My HR called me and said there was a miscommunication and they had enough funding to extend my contract for 1 MORE MONTH! Yippee!! :D

I never felt so much lighter and happier before! Well, at least i still have one more month of salary and to really seek God where i should go. Thank God for His providence.

Remember the Duke-NUS job interview that i went to 2 weeks ago? well, I din get that job but guess what?

The person that interviewed me actualli referred me to another scientist and he emailed me offering me a job and asked me to come down for an interview this wed!

Wow! this is the 1st time that i din have to look for a job and the job offer just came in right in2 my email inbox! :P

This looks like a good job opportunity and would be useful for me if i really do further in science.

I'm quite nervous about the interview. Could this be where God really wants me to be?

My confidence is in You Lord!

2007-09-13T21:29:00.000-07:00

Interview at Duke-NUS 2day wasnt as scary as i tot it wld be.. i tot there wld be a few ppl interviewin me bt there was onli 1! and she was realli friendly and easy to talk with.. :)

She even showed me around the labs and it's so SPACIOUS and new! They juz started 2 yrs ago onli.. Nice.. I miss wrkin in a big lab!

But.. i dun tink i will get the job lar.. coz there was someone b4 me who had 7 years experience! and she is lookin more for ppl to work for long-term.. i dun realli see myself in the science field for veri long either..

Psychology? Counselling?
Human Resource?
Business? Admin?
Bible school? Full time?

I guess i will branch out in2 either one of these.. Science is fun bt i dun excel in it.. mayb i have the passion to work more with young ppl than cells lar..

Anyway, i went jogging juz now wif my sis! and i felt younger and energetic once again! :P It feels so good to exercise after such a loooong time!

I feel super duper hyper!! :D

2007-09-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

Young adults retreat (last sat) at Pasir Ris chalet was super fun and enjoyable!!!

I've never felt so relaxed at a retreat! We played at the playground like we were small kids!

Pasir Ris park playground is like the dream playground for every kid, or at least for me! :P

Can u imagine 7 overgrown kids (sheep, chris, timo, dot, amanda, ele and me) playing at the playground at 12 midnight? That was exactly wat we did! :D

The mini flying fox was the best of them all! Right amanda? :P

I love the flying saucer thing, spidey web and the work out equipments! :P

And we also grabbed every free time to play Catan (The settlers game) and Taboo (Singpore version)! :P

I realli thank God for Gerald, Vera and Raja who took time off their busy schedule to organise the retreat for us and ensure that we had yummy food to eat! :)

I'm realli encouraged by them, by their heart for God and for ppl.. Coz alot of times when ppl get married and have kids, they totally cut down on servin God or dun even come to church at all..

But these 3 ppl are different and i also see how practical they are when it comes to talkin about God and relating it to their daily lives.

Definitely our God is still RELEVANT in our society today! And tt is wat ppl need to see, the relevance of God in their lives!

We will be Your hands
We will be Your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light
We will be your light...

Woah-oo-oh
God be the solution
Woah-oo-oh
We will be Your hands
and be Your feet...
[Solution - Hillsongs United]

Oh ya, Ps Ban shared on the 1st nite session abt daring to believe God for our inheritance! I was realli excited when he talked about the new church building tt we are believing God for..

I remembered tt it was Sam.L's dream tt she wanna see a bigger church building! Right sam? It's coming to pass man!

So my dream of seeing the youth size grow to 1000 shall come to pass too since we can hav a bigger church builing right? actualli we will need a stadium for tt! haha.. Cool! :)

Let's hold on to our dreams and believe God for them!! :D

2007-09-05T23:35:00.000-07:00

I've got a job interview nxt thurs at Duke NUS Medical School!! :D

I was realli suprised to receive the call so quickly coz i sent out my resume on monday and then they called me the very nxt day! wow! Thank God for the quick response! :)

Bt it's still at outram park lar.. I even tot it was in NUS at 1st bt the medical school is juz beside SGH lor! I work there one yr liao and i din noe! :P Hopefully i can get the job.. :)

2007-09-05T23:30:00.000-07:00

No eye has seen
No ear has heard
The goodness that
I have prepared for you
Wait on Me
To hear My voice
I am the potter
and you are the clay

Let Me take you in My hand
And make you all that I want you to be
I will help you understand
Your purpose and
what you can do in Me
Fulfilling your destiny...
(CFN worship sampler 1995)

Can you imagine Daddy God singing this over His children? :) Isn't this more attractive then all the worldly stuff we are listenin to?

My mommy played this realli old cd early this mornin and the words realli spoke to me.. I realli felt like Daddy God was singing this to me.. :)

Jesus take me in Your hand
And make me all that
You want me to be
Jesus help me understand my purpose
and what You can do through me
Fulfilling my destiny..

2007-09-02T23:26:00.000-07:00

This is the "birthday mooncake" that we bought for chris.. haha.. thanks to nana and dot's creative ideas! definitely one of a kind! :P

Happy 21st birthday to chris! :D Happy blowing candles! :P

We went to Chicago's Steakhouse at Cineleisure to eat lunch.. and look at the pathetic size of my steak! and this is supposed to be their signature steak lor! But guess how chris's one look like?

Arghh! I felt so cheated lar! and his was onli a few dollars more than mine! what a BIG difference! The place looks nice onli bt the steak is up to standard!! Chris kept tellin me how fake it is.. hav u ever seen creamy sauce on steaks b4? not goin back there lor.. Jack's place one is so much better! i shall stick to Jack's place for my steaks man!

2007-09-01T23:12:00.000-07:00

This is a random pic of lele durin dinner last sat.. impatiently waiting for our mos burger to arrive! :P i told him to put the tag on his head so the waiter can find us, and he realli did! he even left it on his head for awhile lar.. cute guy! hehe.. :P

2007-08-28T00:25:00.000-07:00

I'm in love with fried mars bar!

Thanks to serene who convinced me to eat this instead of Gelare (my half-price waffle) 2day!

It's cheaper and nicer though! Me and my sweet tooth cravings! :P

2007-08-25T08:51:00.000-07:00

2nd time doing Street-E during LG outing! And tis time we went wif Chris's LG! double power! :P

We did a different approach by giving sweets to those who are muggin for exams and giving them prayer blessings. And we combed the mugging areas in AMK, at Mos, Mac's and KFC! And there were quite a number of ppl studying there!

I encountered some realli cute sec 1 gals from Dee's sch and they were realli curious, asked me how i noe the bible is real and tis and that.. haha.. they are realli cute lar! :P

And there was also one gal whom i got to share wif who was realli opened wif me. She's already a christian bt haven been goin to church coz of parents.

Somehow I believe it was a divine appointment that i gt to meet her and prayed wif her that day. Coz i could feel the compassion and love of God for her when i prayed wif her. Hopefully she can come and join us! :)

One gal got saved! and that happened to be Shirley's friend's friend! Cool! Praise God! :) I believe there will be MORE GALS added to our youth pretty soon! :P

I'm glad and encouraged to see more boldness and courage rising up from Dee and Nana to approach ppl on their own! :D

I'm glad to see Lele so enthusiastic about street-E!

I'm glad to see Jaron being so shy at 1st bt still approachin the ppl in the end!

I wanna see more of tis! :D

The goodies for the ppl! :P

This is where we met and began our street-E. :)

Nana in street-E action at KFC! :P

2007-08-23T11:48:00.000-07:00

Joseph gives a cute and innocent "Huh?" haha.. took this pic last week during young adults cell.. :P

Finally had a break from doing experiments 2day! whew!

Had the chance to chat with Sui Sin and my supervisor 2day and Sui Sin is leaving! :(

And something happened on monday too.. the HR called me up and said there was a miscalculation in the funds transfer for my salary and they can onli extend my contract for 1 more month! which means i onli get to work until September instead of Nov now!

Anyone want to employ me? :(

It was so sudden lar! i tot i stil had 2 more months to go! Looks like i realli gotta leave the dept coz their funds are drying up! and it's juz when i'm gettin in2 the flow of things, then.. *sigh*

Changes again! i hate havin to accomodate to so many changes at one go!

Changes can get me quite frustrated! Bt yet i noe i need to embrace the changes coz it teaches me to be more versatile.. Especially when so many changes has taken place for me tis year in itself.. surely God is teachin me alot of things..

I'm glad i went for gatekeepers 2day even tho i was havin a splitting headache and was kinda worried abt my sis..

Bt i refuse to submit to the circumstances or to wat i see! I choose to stil trust, believe and press on!

I know all this did not happen by mere chance, bt it always comes to try and discourage me whenever i wanna do something new or different.

No one can intimidate the daughter of God and get away with it! The VICTORY is already given to her! She shall overcome! Amen!

"When i sow in tears, i will reap in joy."

Take me away with You
I wanna be close to You
Take me away into the Secret Place..

2007-08-19T22:23:00.000-07:00

Sore throat, fever and flu! Arghh! I hate this 3 in 1 virus package!

I realli knocked out last nite and i cldnt wake in time for church 2day.. :(

I literally slept like a log till 2pm! ahh.. the beauty of sleeping! :P

2007-08-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

Me: Should i do this or should i do that?

God says: Whatever i seek to do, don't doubt

2007-08-16T22:09:00.000-07:00

This whole week flew past just like that.. and i did experiments until i nearly gt cross-eye!

Did more than 60 tubes in one day (for 2 days!) and the tubes are super duper tiny! who was the smarty pants that created these teeny weeny tubes?? strain my hands and eyes onli! haha.. :P

Bt it's good that i gt lots of work to do lar.. at least my mind is occupied and i make full use of my time.. somehow gt no motivation to look for another job.. i miss studying though..

Was in NP area on monday and it made me think abt my friends.. and while browsing thru frenster, i see how many of them have changed..

Friends come and go, bt who are the ones who realli stay?

Anyways, i finally met someone up this wk and that someone went to Taiwan without me knowing and some more went with another someone who used to be quite close wif me in poly! Hymph!

haha.. i appreciate ur reasons lar, bt i stil cant believe u realli went "missing" for one week and i din noe lor! some more call me ur best fren hor? :P Thanks for the necklace! :)

I wanna go on a holiday too!

I'm craving for Big Breakfast and Jack's Place! Who wants to go eat wif me? :P

2007-08-11T07:14:00.000-07:00

At Raja's wedding.. :)

At the wedding, i saw a number of ppl who used to be from our church.. Been a long time since i saw them and they have changed alot.. i remember looking up to them when i was in secondary sch bt now things are so different..

All i noe is that i want to be a good role model to the ppl i am taking care of right now and also to the generations after me.. :)

2007-08-09T00:04:00.000-07:00

Spent almost the whole day at home 2day.. It's been a loooooong time since i gt the day at home to rest!

Been goin from place to place everyday of last wk and i felt quite drained out.. and the past 3 days at work was super packed with experiments too..

So 2day was good time for me to rest, rest in God..

Watched Planetshakers DVD 2day (like finally!).. This song "You're my Healer" caught my attention.. The words goes like this..

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more
than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

Found out from the web that apparently the guy (Mike Guglielmucci) who wrote this song was suffering from cancer and technically may not live that long..

Bt stil he declares God as his Healer and that nothing is impossible for Him! Powerful song! :) oh, and i love the keyboard rythm in this song! :P

Even my mom said this song was nice.. she watched planetshakers wif me! so funky eh? :P

Guess it's a realli timely song for my family and i'm still believing God for complete restoration.. Aunty Lee Noi even lent me a powerful book on healing! Cool! Nothing is impossible for Him! :)

Planetshakers released 3 cds this yr! Bt i tink i like this one the best.. :) haven listened to "Pick It Up" though..

This cd will be in the sojs cd library (will open soon!) so u can borrow it and be blessed! :) haha.. i feel like an advertiser now! :P

Been listening to alot of new songs and i wanna sing it! Bt apparently i cant find the chords yet(especially planetshakers one) and the planetshaker guy tt sings it has a super high voice range! shall get someone to write out the chords! :P

2007-08-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Sam, I'm supposed to blog about ten things abt myself bt i'm lazy to do tt ar.. coz i was tagged b4 to do tt and i typed half-way and saved it as draft and guess wat?

Until now it's stil a draft in my blogger! Lolx.. shall do it when i find the motivation to.. or u can find out this ten weird things for urself by observin me! haha.. :P

2007-07-29T07:46:00.000-07:00

Been feelin mentally drained, dunno y i've been having this headache for the past few days.. Maybe not enuff sleep and have been tinkin alot lar.. I realli shld choose to tink abt the good and pleasing things instead..

Anyway, i'm glad Nana and Dee gave their testimonies abt street-E durin main service 2day! I'm so proud of them! :D

Here are some random pics from last week.. :P

Saw quite a number of cute doggies at the pet shop beside our church.. Ele calls this cocker spaniel, "The dog with bell-bottoms!" Lolx.. so true! He can help me mop my floor wif it's cute paws! :P

I always tot tt i cld onli see tis kind of huskies in places tt has winter! They look like snow dogs lar.. and this pet shop sells a few of them, gt puppies some more! so cute! :P

Orhh...

It was the 1st time tt we da pao "zhi cha" to my place to eat! When i told the person tt i want to da pao the stingray, she was like "huh?".. haha.. i guess we are the 1st ones to ask to da pao.. :P We shld do tis more often! It's fun! :P *look at sam and alvin's expression* :P

2007-07-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

"Why don't we do something radical?"

This was the qn tt Anadee asked when we were tinkin of suggestions on wat to do for LG outing!

And Nana said "Street Evangelism!" WOW!! :D

Honestly, i had doubts abt myself, tinkin hw we shld go abt doin it.. it requires lots of boldness! Bt at the same time i was realli realli encouraged and my faith was stirred, especially since i juz shared abt daring to believe God last sat..

And so ON ar! We shall do it! :P

We met at 3pm at AMK, me and nana spent abt 1hr plus practicing John 3:16 (while waitin for Dee).. We were all quite nervous and din realli noe hw to approach them lor.. i realli had no clue hw it wld work out or hw the response will be..

No experience, no proper trainin, all we had was the Holy Spirit and faith as small as a mustard seed! :)

After quite a long time of preparing and askin this and that, before goin forth, we joined hands and prayed 2gether right there in Mac's, and i cld feel the presence of God surrounding us already.. :)

Then i started the ball rolling and approached this girl who was sittin all by herself and lookin quite restless.. and when i sat down wif her (lots of trembling goin on inside of me!), i felt such an open-ness and God juz gave me the boldness to speak.. she listened attentively and i cld interact wif her freely..

She did not accept God right there bt she allowed me to pray for her.. and she was even suprised tt i do prayer for ppl also.. haha.. Pray tt the seed planted in her will bear fruit soon.. :)

Next was anadee's turn.. I challenged her to go approach this 3 gals (look quite ah lian kind), she and nana hesitated for quite awhile at 1st.. bt she finally went forth wif boldness along wif nana and shared wif them! Her 1st time leh! and she shared wif 3 ppl at one go! Woo Hoo! :)

AND ALL 3 of them ACCEPTED/re-dedicated their lives to God!! Yay!! Praise God! i was amazed! :D

Well, we did face a number of rejections too..

Like tis blind old man tt i noticed outside Mac's while dee was sharin.. I did went up to him to ask if he needed help to set up his stall, and when i was there, i felt such a compassion of the Lord for Him.. Was tinkin already whether i shld pray for healing of his sight! But i din pray right away, coz he speaks chinese and i din noe hw to pray in chinese! :/

Then i went back to Mac's and waited for nana and dee.. After tt, i asked them if i shld go pray for the blind man, they said "Go ahead, we will support u!"

Anadee offered to help me ask the blind man in chinese if we cld pray for him! :P Bt the sad thing was tt he rejected it, saying he was workin.. :( i actualli wanted to see the blind man's sight restored!

And so we moved on.. and it was Nana's turn! She aproached this 3 gals waiting in queue for the bus! i found tt quite daring coz the bus cld come anytime and there were quite alot of ppl in queue.. haha..

Bt she shared, and even tho she din finish sharin the testimony (coz the bus came), i saw that the gals were receptive.. we gave them our sojs card and hopefully they will call us or come down and join our youth service! :)

I'm realli encouraged tt we did put our faith and boldness in2 action 2day! and i realli like usin the John 3:16 method coz it helps us interact wif them! cool! :)

We shall do more of this! Not juz us bt the whole of sojs! :D we need more creative ideas of approach too!

I believe tt more ppl will come to know God through our simple act of going out in faith! 80 ppl! :D

I wanna believe God for signs and wonders too! coz i saw quite a number of wheel-chair bound ppl 2day bt din had time to approach them.. the lame shall walk and the blind shall see! Amen! :D

The tide is turning
This is redemptions hour
In the midst of the world lost for love
You are all we have now..

2007-07-27T00:47:00.000-07:00

Praise Him, praise Him, praise Him in everything!! :D

Just when i tot all hope was lost and was gonna give up, two hands lifted me up and supported me.. It reminded me of the 2 ppl who held Abraham's hands up when he grew tired during the battle..

Thanks Alvin and Chris for being there for me durin this low point of my life.. :)

I was realli moody and emo the last few days.. and i did not even want to go for street E wif nana and dee becoz of tis..

Bt i told God tis: "Daddy God, show Yourself strong on my behalf and let this situation be a testimony of Your goodness and faithfulness!"

And the situation is turning around! All we did was pray and believed God for wat i tot was impossible.. Wat can be too impossible for Him?

When i'm at my weakest, He is the strongest! :)

2007-07-25T23:26:00.000-07:00

It's been a year since this thing happened and it's happening again! why???

I dun tink i can take it anymore.. I'm realli realli realli sick and tired of going to so many hospitals!! Arghh!!

After 2day,
i realized that i'm not so strong after all...

i never felt so helpless and at a loss before..

i realli cant do this on my own..

and i need lots of encouragement right now.. i guess i need to encourage myself even, coz ppl cant always be there for me.. I need a listening ear..

Who am i to even question Daddy God?

I have 2 choices: Self-pity or Trust God.

I dun want self-pity bt i need lots of assurance now.. Maybe God is teaching me to see how strong He can be even when i feel so weak and helpless right now.. I need lots of strength in tis..

I cast all my cares upon You
I lay all my burdens down at Your feet
Anytime i don't know what to do
I will cast all my cares upon You..

2007-07-21T01:01:00.000-07:00

I'm sick and tired of getting touched and not changed! I wanna see a change in our hearts, attitudes and mindsets! I wanna see the power and reality of God in our everyday lives!

2day was juz a measure of it bt i'm glad Uncle Paul went to take over.. I feel that God wants to do more, a deeper work in us, that will leave us permanently changed (like Jacob who wrestled with God and had to walk with a limp for the rest of His life)..

Will you dare to believe? I see sparks, i see potential, i see people who can choose to stand up for Him..

2007-07-21T01:00:00.000-07:00

I had been quite irritated by certain things this week.. people givin me attitude and juz wantin their own way... why suddenly become so strong-willed?

I guess i shall not be emotionally blackmailed and let go and let u see things by urself, since tt is wat u want.. bt tt does not mean i give up on u..

Din noe i show concern also can be wrong.. i guess i gt lots to learn.. everybody has their own way of venting lar..

Honestly, i'm gettin quite tired wif ppl issues.. maybe i'm takin things in2 my own hands, tt's why.. Lord, help me fix my eyes on You..

2007-07-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

2day was the 2nd last keyboard lesson.. so fast! and it wasnt tt good for me.. coz i panicked while playing for my instructor and gt everythin wrong lor.. so pai seh.. i tot i mastered it liao bt guess i need more practice coz i lack confidence lar...

And not all the ppl in the basic course are beginners lor... some of them gt background and it's quite pressurizing coz they can play realli well.. bt ok lar, shall not compare.. shall practice and practice and practice some more! :P

i enjoy playin keyboard durin lunchtime! :P Intermediate lessons will start soon! :)

Seems like i keep tokin abt playing keyboard hor? bt tt is the onli happening thing for me at my wrkplace lar..

oh, plus tokin abt and watching ballroom dancing on youtube almost everyday at wrk! shall go spy on my collegue's dance practice for the competition nxt wk at NUS! hehe.. bt looks like i cant take tt up liao, coz the practices fall on the weekends too.. :/

Anyway, been tinkin alot abt some stuff tis week regarding my sharing for tis sat (i wanna see things happen! so exciting! :P) and my next phase in life aft my job contract ends this December..

My work is startin to speed up now and i'm gettin the hang of it.. plus my supervisor wants to write a scientific paper.. shld i juz leave like that? Sui Sin talked to me 2day and asked me to re-tink abt wat i realli wanna do, coz my supervisor may not hav enuff funding to renew my contract.. hmmz..

Would you believe me if i said God can make miracles happen 2day?
With God, ALL things are possible! :)

2007-07-11T23:56:00.000-07:00

Yippee!! 2day was the best day at my workplace coz the results of my experiments showed up super duper nicely for the 1st time!

It was the best results in dunno hw many months of workin on the same thing!

My supervisor was literally smiling from ear-to-ear and she said wat can realli make a scientist day are good results! :D

Need to do another set to confirm it and hopefully this will bring abt a breakthru in our research! :)

I'm lagging behind in my keyboard lesson coz i missed 2 classes.. :/ and i'm onli left wif 3 more lessons b4 the beginners course end! so fast!

I have learnt hw to play simple C,G7,F chords wif the right hand keys liao.. Found it hard to coordinate at 1st bt it's quite fun aft tt when ur fingers juz noe wat to play.. hehe..

I cant wait to play keyboard and worship God thru it.. :) Is there a faster way to learn ar?

Daddy God, can i hav a keyboard to practice at home? :)

2007-07-10T21:32:00.000-07:00

Went to watch Transformers yest wif Fishtail (a.k.a yuwei)!! haha.. onli me and her tian mi mi wor.. :P she purposely wait for me to watch wif her and came all the way to tiong bahru lor... so touched...thank you Fishtail! :)

I realli enjoyed the movie!! So cool lar! i wish to hav a car like tt.. :P "No sacrifice, no victory.." so true.. :)

A little update abt my work.. gettin quite frustrated wif myself actualli, keep makin silly errors.. i guess i realli need to change field.. other than tt, i'm glad i made a new friend coz it's rare to find same age grp ppl in my level..

And he is learning ballroom dancing! Cool! tis is the 1st guy tt i met who knows ballroom dancing.. :P and the class tt he's takin is not veri ex.. shall tink abt it 1st coz i'm gettin quite broke tis mth..

It's actualli been my dream to learn ballroom dancing! *twinkles* Can tis dream be fulfilled?

My sis is back!!! and my house is ALIVE again wif her hyperness!! haha..

Last week was realli draining and tiring for us.. Imagine havin to wait at A&E from 1am-4am and them tellin me tt she does not need to be warded and havin her to go back there again the 2nd time to be warded! Lack of beds also muz check properly mah.. waste my time and money.. :/

Bt thank God my sis is recovered from her Gastroenteritis (gastric flu lar..) now, and thank God it's not dengue fever! Thanks Alvin and Val for coming to visit her.. :)

Apparently lots of interesting things happened to my sis while she was at hospital.. The nurses love her coz she kept helping the old ppl (she's the youngest in the ward)...

And she said she got 4 admirers (2 young doctors and 2 auditors)! and they are all good-lookin guys accordin her.. haha.. y wasnt i there to see all these exciting things takin place? :P

Her mentor bought her a humongous dog soft toy!! So cute and super cuddly!! the dog became the center of attraction at the hospital instead of her! :P

She's so proud of her doggy called Mitch.. :)

2007-07-10T21:00:00.000-07:00

[[ Read this from a book which realli enlightened me.. ]]

"We can't plant suggestions in the ears of hearers. We can't preach at them, shame them or coerce them in becoming the people we want them to be.

We have to trust God who hears in secret (prayer), to do the work Himself, with no help from us.

We give up trying to shape them into ours. We give up the desire for control over others. We let God be in control.

God is ENOUGH! God's power is SUFFICIENT!"

Daddy God, i'm depending on You.. Onli You can bring about a conviction, onli You can do the things tt i cannot do..

2007-06-30T00:06:00.000-07:00

After 2day, i can realli see the unity of us comin 2gether.. Seeing ppl like dot and amanda coming alongside me realli touched my heart.. :)

Though we are called servers, i wasnt realli close to them coz i always tink tt we'll quite different lar.. bt 2day, i realized tt we can identify wif one another and we share the same heart for ppl.. cool... :)

Yup, i'm not alone in this.. There are so many things surfacing out (process of purging and cleansing) tt it's time to be more alert and on our guard now..

2007-06-29T02:32:00.000-07:00

I felt such a huge burden in my heart 2day after gatekeepers.. More shaking is gonna take place and I felt tt God is gonna do a prunning (a cutting off of d wrong heart attitudes) in the worship ministry.. it's gonna be painful..

I realli cant tolerate the half-heartedness and slip-shotness in the way we come to God or serve God anymore.. especially we who are in the forefront in the worship ministry... Where is God's due honor and respect? He deserves our best and not our leftovers..

It's time to raise the bars, to raise the expectations and standards.. Jesus was compassionate, yet at the same time uncompromising in doing the will of God.. This is wat i need to walk in..

I dun want to hold back anymore becoz of fear of tis or fear of tt.. I realli need to do what is right... Daddy God, give me the courage to set things right...

2007-06-29T02:00:00.000-07:00

Here's a late update on the camp..

Worship.Music.Dance camp was refreshing, eye-opening, exciting, fun, challenging, inspiring and... ehh..ran out of words to describe..bt most importantly God was there and He opened and stirred up something within us! :)

** Dance **
I was realli realli realli realli excited to see all of us dancing 2gether!!! It's like a dream come true! :) Even the guys who said they dunno hw to dance or always act cool on the surface :P, took up the tambourines, flags and streamers and danced!! The sight of it was awesome!

And during the time when we were worshippin thru dance, i felt such a difference and release in the atmosphere!

Dance is not juz something nice to watch leh, it's a veri powerful tool which God uses to bring victory and tear down strongholds.. juz by simply holding up the banner, u are already declaring warfare in the heavenlies! :)

** Worship **
Passionate worshippers is what God is looking for! This is the 1st time i realli see sojs being passionate abt their worship to God right here in our own church even without an electric guitar! Wow! :D

It's the about the hype of it all bt there was realli such an openness and desire to juz express their worship to God! :) Tt's the kind of expression tt i've been wanting to see! and it's gonna continue on and on.. amen!

"We'll gonna dance dance dance in the freedom we know becoz the freedom we noe is gonna last forever!" :P

** Message **
I was realli inspired and challenged by all of the sharings by Andrew and Jason! Being passionate, no excuses, activating spiritual giftings, lost dreams coming to life again, our purpose and destiny, all of the sharings realli burned in my heart..

Even Jason who was the same age as me, was so radical for God! Tt realli inspired me! :) Time for a change, time to walk it out..

Oh, i enjoyed Andrew's jokes too! "I am salty..." :P (thanks to chris, it has been ringing in my head!)

** Overall **
I was realli blessed by the ministry of the dancers and Andrew Yeo.. Thank God for this opportunity and for chris who organised everything.. not an easy task bt we see the fruits of all the hard labor on the knees.. :) Thank God for the aunties who cooked the yummy yummy food! :)

Yup, it's onli the beginning and we hav tasted juz a measure of it.. there is MORE tt God wants to do.. It's time to start dreaming BIG dreams for God and not limit myself anymore..

No more compromises, to raise a generation who will be His standard bearers.. not easy, bt i've got a BIG God who can do way exceedingly and abundantly above all i ask or tink! :)

Guess wat chris is doing? He's pegging up the curtain the nite b4 camp so tt no one will enter thru lar! Looks like braiding hair hor? haha.. thank God he decided not to peg it in the end! look so funny lar! :P

I love tis pic tt Jaron took man! All of us waving the streamers 2gether! Looks like a ball of fire around us! cool! :D

The result of kneeling down too hard durin dance! haha.. Me and val had a blue-black on the same knee! And it formed into the letters "OK"! I realli dunno hw val kneel until her a "K" blue-black can be formed lor.. so unique! :P

People wif a servant's heart.. *hint hint* :P

2007-06-20T22:04:00.000-07:00

Will be away in camp from 2nite till sat.. dun miss me! :P